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Thursday, December 31, 2009

I finally got it!!

Earlier this year I was talking about wanting one of these Weider Powerbells (weighted plates take it from five to 20 pounds), and good thing I waited!  When I found them, I think I could only get it online, and it was $120.  Granted, I could make three payments of $40, but I doubt that even included shipping.

For some reason I thought about it yesterday and did a search, and I found that Sears carrys them.  Not only that, they are now $99.  My local Sears showed they had two, so I went out today and got what appeared to be their last one (obviously their stock info was wrong)!  WOOT WOOT!

This weekend we plan to lay the flooring in the basement, so as soon as that is done, I'll have a workable basement again.  Bring on the workouts!

Here's a link to the different butt-kickin' workouts to do with this thing  :http://www.getpowerbell.com/powerdvd.html

12 Must-Keep Diet and Nutrition Resolutions

Though we all know we're not "on a diet," per se, we still have to follow certain "diet" rules.  I looked through these and they could work well for all of us this upcoming year.  Enjoy.  :)

January: Focus on Fat

Because it has the highest concentration of calories, cut down on fat intake, and saturated fats in particular — heavy cream, butter, sour cream, and cream cheese — which elevate LDL, the bad cholesterol, explains Barbara Schmidt, MS, RD, lifestyle specialist at Norwalk Hospital and private practice nutritionist in New Canaan, Conn.

February: Jot Down Your Diet

Take a few minutes every weekend to map out your daily diet for the coming week. With a checklist format, you can tick off each item as you eat it. "It's important to track calories if you are watching your weight," says Dr. Caroline Apovian, director of the Nutrition and Weight Management Center at Boston University Medical Center. Adds Schmidt, "Keeping a record makes you aware of what you're eating and makes you a student of your habits, to keep you on course and prevent unconscious eating. Keep an exercise record, too."

March: Eat a Better Breakfast

It's advice we know — and usually ignore! Not only does skipping breakfast keep you from getting vital nutrients, it can lead to your grabbing tasteless, empty-calorie foods, like that stale Danish from the office coffee cart. "Breakfast stokes up your furnace and gets your metabolism going for the entire day," says Schmidt. And the best breakfast choices are fast and easy:
  • Fresh fruit & yogurt
  • High-fiber cereal with skim milk and fruit
  • Oatmeal
  • Smoothie made with nonfat yogurt, frozen blueberries, and avocado  

April: Add Some Weight to Your Workout

The more muscle you have, the faster your metabolism, and the faster your weight loss, explains Schmidt. Experts suggest adding two sessions of targeted weight training to your weekly fitness program through either free weights, resistance machines, or exercises using Therabands. Try Dr. Apovian's favorite: Do lunges from one end of the room to the other as you use hand weights to work biceps and triceps.

May: Stop Stress Eating

Use behavior modification to keep you from reaching for the cookies when you get anxious. "Try activities that aren't compatible with eating, like knitting, playing piano, and painting," suggests Schmidt. When you're tempted between meals, she suggests looking at your watch and asking yourself, "Is it my time to eat?" If not, grab the paintbrush. The problem with between-meal nibbling is the chain reaction it starts: We take a bite of a candy bar, feel guilty about it, and then eat the whole thing! Because stress eating is often done on the fly, Apovian says to abide by the following mantra: If you cannot enjoy every bite and eat slowly, it is not worth eating.

June: Stick to Healthy Portions

Often, it's the amount of the food you eat that derails your diet. Suggested serving sizes are surprisingly small, and starches pile up fast. "One serving of pasta or rice is only one-third cup. If you eat one cup, which is not a lot, that's already three servings. A bagel equals five slices of bread, and can't be part of your repertoire if you want to lose weight," says Schmidt. Fats are even more concentrated. Just six almonds equal one serving — eat a cupful and you've consumed 1,000 calories! Apovian recommends the "new American plate": 50 percent vegetables, 25 percent protein, 25 percent starch, and a piece of fruit for dessert.

Size up portions this way:
  • 3 ounces of protein = a deck of cards
  • 1 cup rice or pasta, 1 medium fruit = tennis ball
  • 1 ounce cheese = a pair of dice
  • 1 tablespoon peanut butter = ping-pong ball
  • 1 tablespoon oil, salad dressing = ½ ping-pong ball 

July: Feed Your Mind and Body

So often people eat simply because they're bored and depressed about being on a diet! Shift your focus away from the drudgery of counting calories and find ways to replace eating with fun. Investigate activities that not only get you up and moving, but may also promote well-being, like yoga, Pilates, and meditation. "You need to take that time for yourself," says Schmidt. "Even if you just go for a 30-minute walk, for instance, to get away from daily living, you could relax and be stress-free." Other ideas to get you moving:
  • Dancing
  • Swimming
  • Golf (walk, don't use the cart!)
  • Kickboxing
  • TV fitness shows 

August: Eat Fruits and Vegetables

Fruits and vegetables contain phytochemicals and antioxidants to keep you healthy, young, and free of cancer. The goal is "five a day," but to lose weight, keep serving sizes in mind. Many whole fruits are two servings, like a large apple or a banana. "Eat both and you've already had four servings," warns Schmidt. Sugar snap peas and baby carrots are two good snacks. Bolognese sauce on spaghetti squash is a great pasta alternative, says Apovian. But beware of what you put on your produce. Hummus adds fat; a better alternative is low-fat dip or salad dressing. Peanut butter on apple slices tastes great, but adds 100 calories per spoonful.

September: Develop a Better Body Image

It's easy to lose motivation if you tell yourself you'll never reach your goal of becoming a supermodel. Realize that most women don't have the "perfect" body — you might have some diet-resistant trouble spots, but that's no reason to quit. Find ways to celebrate every lost pound and set your sights on being the best you can be. "Focus on exercise and improving performance and the body will follow," says Apovian. Adds Schmidt: "I always tell my clients it's about being healthy, not about being thin."

October: Break the Binge/Guilt/Binge Cycle

You're changing your lifestyle, so change your behaviors, too. Promise yourself no more binges, even when you fall off the wagon. Just because you ate a slice of cake doesn't mean you should follow it with slices two and three. One piece of cake is 500 calories, while a pound of fat is 3,500. You'd have to eat it every day for a week to gain a pound. Once won't derail all the work you've done, so don't beat yourself up — just get back on track, says Schmidt.

November: Get More Sleep to Lose Weight

"We all should sleep eight hours a night," stresses Apovian. Studies show that people who don't get enough rest eat more when they're awake. If you find yourself dragging in the afternoon, you might think, I'm tired, so I'll eat. "But you feel tired because you're dehydrated and need to drink more water," explains Schmidt. Speaking of fluids, if you sip a lot of coffee and caffeinated sodas throughout the day, you might have trouble sleeping at night — plus caffeine further dehydrates you, requiring you to drink even more water.

December: Practice Moderation During the Holidays

"Exercise at every opportunity," says Schmidt. "Try for all seven days a week because you'll be eating more calories." Her day-of-the-party strategy is to have your regular meals, with a light snack beforehand "to take the edge off so you don't arrive ravenous and ready to eat the furniture." Watch liquid calories, especially sweet drinks like eggnog, which are high in fat. Set a two-glass limit on wine or wine spritzers, and sip a seltzer in between. Remember, alcohol increases triglyceride levels and slows down your metabolism. Focus on enjoying other holiday activities, like caroling, decorating the tree, and dancing, says Apovian.


Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Down one size, but it's not what you think

I got some gorgeous earrings for my anniversary (yeah, I know... don't know the story there, especially since we were fighting on our anniversary), and they were so expensive it made me really think about finally gettingg a jewelry rider on our homeowner's insurance.  I have an appraisal for the earrings, but the ones I had for our wedding rings are 16 years old, and I have another ring (one of those three-diamond types they typically call the past, present, and future) that I put together from an old engagement ring and two diamonds from his grandmother's old wedding rings which I have no idea the value of.  This particular ring, however, was also too big and, especially since it's wintertime here, it tends to twirl all around my finger -- which means I don't wear it now.  So I'm getting it re-sized along with the appraisal.

Well, I have on a ring that I've almost never been able to wear since I got it because my fingers were just too big, but lately I am able to wear it.  It's on the finger that the three-diamond ring would normally go on (ring finger, right hand).  I gave this ring to the girl behind the counter and said I needed the other one sized to this one's size.  Omg, ONE WHOLE SIZE.  The ring was a 7, and I now need it in a 6.  That's a lotta fat in one's finger to go down an entire size.  And the thing is, when I was thin, I wore about a 4 1/2 to 5.  Maybe one day...  :)

Kind of a non-scale victory, but I'll take a small size anywhere in ANYthing.  :)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Redefining myself

I had a good session with Heather last night, though it was a hard one.

I haven't seen her in about a month due to my classes and trying to get everything wrapped up for the semester.  The last two weeks of school were brutal -- total stress eating, bad choices, hand-to-mouth, all of it.  The bad thing is that since school ended, THEN it was celebrating -- drinking Colorado Bulldogs (very fattening, even for alcohol), ice cream, and chips.  The result is certainly no surprise -- a six pound gain.  To boot, I wasn't even making time for exercise those last two weeks because I was studying so hard -- the ONLY time I had missed exercise since the first of October.

Obviously she wasn't happy to hear how I had dealt with the stress, reverting to old habits.  She was asking me why my grades were so important to me, what was the significance to me and what did it mean to not do well?  What drove me?  I told her it was odd -- I'm VERY particular and a perfectionist about my school work and my work ethic/product when I'm at a job, but my house looks like hell.  Very odd to me, but I guess it's somewhat common, to not be perfectionistic in all aspects of one's life and focus on some areas of importance.

I said I wasn't sure what drove me, what made this area of my life so important to-- and then I stopped dead.  I took in a deep breath, let out a "whoa..." and started crying.  It hit me like a ton of bricks.  When I was a kid, I was told I would never amount to anything.  I don't think it was said a lot, but it was enough to make a huge impact on my faith in myself.  I think I'm busy trying to prove to myself that that wasn't true, and getting good grades or doing a good job is one way that I help stamp down that inner voice that keeps trying to hold me back and make me doubt myself.

This isn't about trashing the person this came from; it's completely about me unlearning some horrible things that I tell myself and that the deep, dark recesses of my being tend to believe:

You'll never amount to anything
You'll never finish
You're worthless
What makes you so special
Why are you doing this
You can't do it
What are you thinking
You're an idiot/moron/dumb fuck/loser

Whether I've heard all of these things at one time in my life or anther with my physical ears or my mental ones I can't say.  The lines have blurred between when some of these may have been said to me and when I took up the mantra myself and let those thoughts seep into the dark recesses of my own psyche.  How does one undo something that feels like it's part of their DNA?  How does one begin to have faith in themselves, to truly believe in themselves?  I mean, I get angry at my own demons, knowing that I'm intelligent and not worthless, that I'm a pretty decent human being overall, but still... it never goes away.  The lies that are my demons never get chased off by the angels that are my truths.  Why is that?  At 44 years of age, will this ever change?

I know it is what has hurt me in the past with weight loss.  I still have the dieter mentality even now, feeling success and failure with every pound lost or gained.  I define myself based on my accomplishments, whatever they are.  I allow society to tell me that my worth is based on how young I am, how I look, how thin I am, how wealthy I am (though the latter doesn't matter so long as I have the first three because I'm a woman)... I mean, how fucked up IS that?  Who are they to decide??  Yet they do.  They have that power.  Somehow, they have that power. 

And it doubles up with my own self-doubts and can feel so suffocating sometimes.  I sometimes feel like such a fake because what people see is a strong person, somebody with outer strength.  But like the zodiac that I am -- Cancer -- I appear hard on the outside but I feel so frail inside.  People who don't know me that well can hardly believe it when I share glimpses of the real me, the things that scare me, cripple me, bring me to my knees, incapacitate me.  I'm an open book, yet I put up walls.  I feel fake, but somehow both personas are me.  I used my size for so long to help add to my outer strength, or the appearance of it -- so now what?  When I let this go, what then?  Do I change?  WILL I change?  Hell, CAN I change?

It's so hard to believe what affects us for life.  What happened happened, but why do we -- hell, why do I -- then choose (and yes, it's a choice of some form) to believe, hang on, and feed that which hurts the most?  Will I ever get this right?

Sunday, December 20, 2009

My FINAL final is finally finalized!

Omg, I'm DONE -- for a month, that is.  I had my last final on Thursday, and I've been somewhat busy doing stuff I want to do since then.   Well, except for today.  Today I was shoveling snow.  Lots and lots of snow.  The photo above is from my neighbor's across our common driveway.  I thought it was just SO pretty!

But I have all my grades in now -- two As and three Bs.  Not disappointed.  Next semester I have signed up for six classes, though.  It's only one more credit hour, but one more class.  I'm either horribly stupid or brave.  Or horribly stupid.

I don't go back until January 19, so I have things I want to get done now.  First of all is this HOUSE.  Omg, I haven't cleaned since before the semester started.  Yes, you read that right.  I had so much dog hair clustering on my hardwoods that I was about to just name it and say I have three dogs instead of just two.  I figured the easiest thing to do would be to get a leaf blower in here and just blow everything out.

The good news now is maybe I can get back on track with my eating.  Holy moly, I don't even want to know how badly I did these last couple weeks.  But ever since classes ended, I haven't really been all that hungry, which is good.  Tuesday I go in for fluro and possibly a slight re-fill.

Anyway, mama's back for a little bit.  I hope to find some really good info to share here with y'all.  Welcome to all the new joins!  :)

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Aaaahhh, sleep, that elusive creature

I went in on Friday and got a slight unfilill -- about 1cc.  Though I wasn't happy about that, the unfill -- along with a perscription for Nexium -- seemed to do the trick last night.  I only wish it was longer, since I had to get up about 8:30 in the morning to get up and ready for a final I had at 10:30.

But wow, the sleep was NICE!  I had hardly slept since Monday.  I had called the doctor's office Friday morning, asking what I should do, and the receptionist asked if I could hold out until Monday because my fill doc was out until then.  I almost started crying, and I told her I had hardly slept since Monday.  She texted him, and he wanted to come in and help me take care of it.  Thursday night/Friday morning's episode had been pretty bad, with me jumping out of  bed coughing and sputtering because of the horrendous reflux I experienced.  I felt like I was going to drown.  I took a THIRD Protonix, only to feel myself refluxing on it (the taste, not the pill itself) later in the morning.

Anyway, sleep was WELL received.  I even took a nap today (Saturday) after taking my first of four finals.  That felt very good too.

I have an appointment with my doctor on 12/22 (already scheduled) that has now turned into a fluro exam.  We'll see how that goes.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Okay, dangit, this is getting old...

The reflux I was talking about late last week responded to the Protonix my P.A. put me on.  And then it stopped.  o_O

Friday through Sunday, I slept great.  But starting Monday night and since then, I've been having the same exact issue -- even ON the Protonix (twice a day, mind you).  Granted, I'm not experiencing the same amount of reflux, but still... it's enough to wake me up numerous times a night.  However, it's weird -- it doesn't seem to be as much acid as it seems to be saliva.  I'm not sure what that's all about.

I called the office the other day to ask what I should do.  They said I could either come in for a slight unfill, or I could simply try to just deal with it until finals are over next week.  Since I'm self-pay, it's not really worth it to me to pay for an unfill just to turn around and get another fill later on.  I'm already scheduled for the 22nd for a potential slight fill.

I got a new Sleep Number bed the other day (a bed I've been wanting for nearly a dozen years) and I haven't even really been able to fully enjoy it because of the damned reflux.  :(

W-w-w-w-ow, w-w-w-w-w-hassat?

Omg, I get COLD now!!  Today was a bit blustery, and all I had on over my tee was a zip-up hoodie.  In the past, that would have sufficed, but not today!

So I stopped by the store today to get a new coat.  My old ones are 3X, waaaay too big.  I got the one at Costco last month, but that was relatively lightweight.  I needed something with a bit more bulk.  I lucked out and got an XL on clearance for $29.95!  It's a tad bit tight, but it'll fit eventually.

But yeah, I get cold now!  Whassat?

Sunday, December 6, 2009

The 4 Most Fattening Fall Foods

Good to know, especially the Starbucks info!  o_O

Watch Out for These Sneaky Calories!
-- By Sarah Haan, Registered Dietitian

Halloween marks the beginning of a two-month season packed with parties and desserts—now that's scary for anyone who is trying to manage his or her weight. Beyond the fun-size (and therefore calorie-controlled) candies of Halloween, several fall treats are big calorie bombs. Be on the lookout for these surprisingly high-cal foods, which can add up fast if you let your guard down.

Pumpkin Flavored Baked Goods

Pumpkin itself is a healthful food. Plain pumpkin puree contains a dose of vitamin A and fiber for a small amount of calories. But pair it with sugar, cream cheese frosting, shortening and butter and you’ve got a high-cal treat dressed in a healthy-looking orange outfit. Restaurants and coffee shops are the biggest villains, promoting their pumpkin scones, muffins, donuts and breads, which can contain up to 630 calories per serving. Don't let "low-fat" versions trick your either; low-fat is not the same thing as low-calorie. Your best bet is to avoid all of these pumpkin treats, unless you look up the nutrition facts before you bite and decide that it can fit into your day. Homemade treats, frequents at parties and offices, aren't necessarily better either, so be careful!

TRICK: You can bake your own pumpkin treats using less sugar and fat, plus whole-grain goodness. Use a mini muffin tin to help with keep your portions in check and steer clear of these seasonal baked goods!

Hot Seasonal Beverages

Sometimes there is nothing more enjoyable than sipping a hot drink on a crisp fall day. Many coffee joints offer special seasonal beverages during the holidays. While plain coffee is low-cal, seasonal lattes and drinks contain a lot of sugar, and most boast a heavy dose of cream, too. A medium pumpkin spice latte with whole milk is 410 calories at Starbucks, and its competitors don't do much better. As liquid calories do not aid in fullness or satiety, these calories probably are not worth it!

TRICK: Order a small beverage (if you must) and lighten the load by requesting fat free milk and holding any whipped topping. Freshly brewed chai tea can be a great alternative that is virtually calorie-free, but look out for blended drinks that are ready to serve; they often contain cream, syrups and lots of added sugar. Many coffeehouses use a sugar syrup as the base for their chai; ask that yours be made with real tea and no added sugar. Request hot water and a teabag of chai tea (black tea with spices) with some low-fat milk on the side. Watch out for these high-cal hot beverages!

Caramel Apple Anything

Yes, it’s obvious. If you cover a healthy fruit with sugar, it becomes a less healthy choice. Simple caramel apples seem innocent, but they can pack 300 calories onto that little wooden stick. Pop extra sprinkles, candies or nuts onto the outside of the apple and it’ll amp the calorie level even further. It's also good practice to avoid caramel apple desserts and baked goods from most restaurants. Most don't even contain a single serving of fruit and more than their fair share of calories and fat (see chart below).

TRICK: Enjoy your apples by cutting them into wedges and dipping them into low fat caramel dip, fat free vanilla yogurt or peanut butter. The following high-cal treats are far from healthy.

Chocolate Fun Size Candies

They may be teeny-tiny, but at an average of about 100 calories a pop, these popular fun-size treats can really add up! Sure they're smaller than a full size bar and offer built-in portion control, but how often do you stop after just one? It's far too easy to eat four of five "little" candies, thinking you're not doing much damage, but that can easily add up to 400 or 500 calories in a matter of minutes. The bars that hide the most calories are those that contain peanut butter, coconut, chocolate, caramel, and nuts.

TRICK: Start reading fun-size labels before throwing out the package so that you're not eating blindly; these calories do count. Figure out the best choice for you and stick with that particular treat. Fun-size peppermint patties and Twizzlers have about half of the calories of the average chocolate bar but keep in mind these can still add up! Here are 11 fun-size treats that all contain 100 calories or fewer.

The most important thing to remember during the fall season is to think before you bite. Don't make excuses about desserts or baked treats being "healthful" just because apple or pumpkin is in the name, and monitor your intake of tiny-size treats, which can easily add up to BIG numbers of calories. Think about what these seasonal treats are doing for your body and put your label reading skills to work and stay in control of your choices.

*Sources of Nutrition Facts

All calorie information, with the exception of Cheesecake Factory, came from respective restaurant and food manufacturer websites on October 20, 2009. All Cheesecake Factory calorie counts courtesy of CalorieLab.com, which posted scanned menus from a Washington state Cheesecake Factory, where restaurants must provide calorie counts by law. Total fat and sugars were not available. No nutrition facts are currently available on the Cheesecake Factory website.


5 Tips to Break Sugar Addiction

Okay, if you're not able (or willing) to do the Five Day Pouch Test, I found this article in Everyday Health to help break sugar addiction. I was personally a bit surprised by number three!  o_O

If you’re an American, there’s a good chance that you need to break a sugar addiction. From the time we’re children, processed sugar is constantly marketed to us. From Honey Comb to Hershey bars to a litany of carbonated beverages (the highest-grossing "food" sold in America), we spend our lives sucking saccharides in over-abundance.

Now, millions of us suffer from a variety of problems related to eating too much sugar, including obesity, diabetes, and heart disease.

So, how do you break sugar addiction? Here are five tips to get you started.

1. Quit eating high-fructose corn syrup. Start checking nutrition labels and you’ll notice that a huge swath of what we eat has high-fructose corn syrup in it, especially sweets and junk foods. But you might think you have a healthy diet and still have a sugar addiction because you regularly eat yogurt, ketchup, granola and meal-replacement bars, and salad dressings – many of which contain high-fructose corn syrup. Despite piles of data explaining how dangerous this stuff is, profiteering food manufacturers continue to defend their use of it.

2. Eat natural sugars. Quit dumping white sugar into your recipes, coffee, tea, and cereal. If you must sweeten something, use honey or turbinado sugar (sold as Sugar in the Raw). Avoid brown sugar, as it’s often just white sugar with molasses added. While your food might, at first, seem bland, after a few weeks you’ll notice that lots of things are much sweeter than you knew, including grains, fruits, and milk. After a few months, you won’t miss refined sugar at all, and you’ll be able to tell that soda pop is nasty, syrupy goop.

3. Quit eating artificial sweeteners. At UC San Diego, researchers found that Splenda fires up the same neural pathways as sugar. Psychiatrist Guido Frank then told The Scientific American, "Splenda has less of a feedback mechanism to stop the craving to get satisfied." Which, to Frank, means it keeps you craving sugar. Again, if you really need to sweeten something, use natural sugars, and sparingly.

4. Eat plenty of fiber. Soluble fiber helps stabilize blood sugar – preventing sugar crashes and the cravings that inevitably follow. Soluble fiber can be found in fiber-rich foods like oatmeal, beans, fruits, and vegetables. I’ve found that beating sugar crashes is its own health benefit, as you escape the hunger, depression, and lack of energy that come with them. It also breaks the sugar addict’s cycle of refueling every couple hours with more sugar. Not to mention, fiber helps you feel full.

5. Wait out the cravings. Assuming you’re eating healthy foods in healthy amounts on a regular basis throughout the day, you should be able to out-wait sugar cravings as they arise. Like any food cravings, sugar cravings pass pretty quickly. If you’re starving yourself to lose weight, rather than eating properly, it’ll be much harder not to cave to sugar cravings. Here are some healthier desserts to satisfy your sweet tooth.


Saturday, December 5, 2009

Cutting Calories: How Low Should You Go?

The more and more I think about it, I seriously think this is what happens to those of us with a band.  Let's face it, we are having our food and calorie intake restricted.  When that happens too much, I think our metabolisms stall out.  Here is what Everyday Health has to say about it:

Can Eating Too Few Calories Stall Your Metabolism?
Learn why cutting out too many calories can keep you from losing weight.

By Krisha McCoy, MS
Medically reviewed by Christine Wilmsen Craig, MD

If you're like most people who want to lose weight, you want to lose it fast. So you may be tempted to make drastic changes in your diet to dramatically reduce the number of calories you consume. But what you may not know is that eating too few calories can actually backfire and sabotage your weight-loss efforts.

"It would make sense to stop eating [when you are trying to lose weight], but it actually works in the opposite way," says Kimberly Lummus, MS, RD, Texas Dietetic Association media representative and public relations coordinator at the Austin Dietetic Association in Austin, Texas.

Calories and Your Health

The most effective way to lose weight is to consume fewer calories than you expend, creating a calorie deficit. But if your calorie intake dips too low, says Lummus, your body could go into starvation mode. "Your body will start to store fat because it thinks it is not going to get anything," says Lummus. "You will be at a point where your body is kind of at a standstill."

Lummus says that when your body goes into starvation mode, your metabolism slows to a crawl, burning calories as slowly as possible to conserve its energy stores. This is why people who cut their calories too much may reach a plateau and stop losing weight.

Eating too few calories can be the start of a vicious cycle that causes diet distress. When you cut your calories so low that your metabolism slows and you stop losing weight, you probably will become frustrated that your efforts are not paying off. This can lead you to overeat and ultimately gain weight.

"It is so hard to sustain cutting calories and eating too little. What typically happens is that the person will go in the opposite direction; they will just become too hungry and go into a binging mode," says Lummus. "Because you are getting frustrated by not seeing any weight loss, you just sort of throw in the towel."

In addition to sabotaging your weight-loss efforts, eating too few calories can also harm your health. When your body goes into starvation mode, you are at increased risk for the following:
  • Abnormally low blood pressure and slow heart rate
  • Heart rhythm abnormalities
  • Electrolyte imbalances, especially potassium deficiency
  • Gallstones
  • Hair loss
  • Brittle fingernails
  • Loss of menstrual periods in women
  • Soft hair growth over entire body
  • Dizziness
  • Trouble concentrating
  • Anemia
  • Swelling in your joints
  • Brittle bones
  • Depression
Coming to Terms With Calories

Remember that calories are not your enemy. They are a vital part of a healthy and energetic life. "Your body needs a certain amount of calories just to sustain proper function," says Lummus. This is why fad diets that force you to cut out too many calories leave you feeling lethargic, shaky, and ready to give up.

Instead of opting for a fad diet, find a reasonable eating and exercise plan that allows you to lose one-half to two pounds per week. There is evidence that people who lose weight at this rate — by making better nutrition choices, eating smaller portion sizes, and exercising — also have the best chance of keeping it off. Make a plan to adopt new healthful habits that you will be able to stick to indefinitely, and always allow yourself a little wiggle room for special occasions.


Friday, December 4, 2009

Interesting news...

Well, I went and saw Paul, my P.A./fill doctor, and it seems I threw him for a loop.  I went in telling him what was going on, how I was feeling, etc., and at first he thought I needed a slight unfill.  I wasn't happy to hear that and asked how it was that I could have been filled back in July and it was just now giving me problems.  He explained how women have hormonal issues that can cause tightness, blah blah blah.  I wasn't really agreeing.

I added that I was in finals mode and that I figured the stress was a factor.  "Why didn't you say so?" he asked.  Okay, so he was thinking it was a temporary issue and decided to prescribe Protonix.  Then he asked about how I've been doing with food.  I said that I don't often feel hungry, but then I don't really ever feel "full" either, after eating what I SHOULD eat.  I also said that I've had no real problem eating anything.  He asked if the reflux had any residual food with it, and I said no -- which made him furrow his brow and exclaim that he was truly befuddled.  He said that maybe, instead of needing an UNfill, I actually need a fill -- that the acid reflux is a result of being a bit too open, especially since food was not being held in my pouch and brought up with the acid.

However, because I am symptomatic he would rather try the Protonix for right now, let things settle down, and then schedule me for a fill when classes are over.  That worked for me!  I would have never assumed I was in need of a fill, but maybe he's right.  Granted, that will put me on mushies over Christmas, but that's okay.  :)

Possibly time for a slight unfill

For about two weeks now, I've been experiencing reflux while I've been sleeping.  I had reflux once after a too-tight fill, but that lasted almost 24/7; however, this is different.  It's usually only at night, and it's been flooding me to the point where I'm waking up hacking and coughing, feeling like I'm drowning.

I'm not sure what may have caused me to be too tight since nothing has really changed... I haven't had a fill since I think June, so what may be causing it to be too tight six months later?  I don't know if it's stress related due to school or what.  Somebody I know mentioned that she had the same problem and was glad to find out it wasn't a slip.  A SLIP??  I wasn't even thinking about a slip!!

So the doctor gave me the choice of coming in today between surgeries he's performing or waiting until Monday.  I think I'll take today, thankyouverymuch.  I don't think I can handle another night of this.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

I want to run a 5K

I checked with an online site called Active.com that shows activities in my area, and there are a few 5Ks that will be going on in the spring -- one in April, another in May.

I've never run more than three minutes at a time, and THAT was only once.  I have downloaded the Couch to 5K program on my computer -- now I just have to figure out how to get it onto my MP3 and start planning for this.

I've seen others I know do a 5K or half-marathon, and though I never considered myself the running type, I would SO consider this a feather in my cap and proof that I'm making this work out.

So... now it's in writing.  I don't want to just think about it, I want to say I'm going to DO it... because we all know what "thinking" about stuff does for us.

[For those interested in the podcasts that I'm referring to, you can find all 12 weeks here:  http://www.ullreys.com/robert/Podcasts/podcasts/podcasts.html .]

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

BAD PB, feeling sick

Whoa, Nellie, bad night! Hubby has been eating a lot of these breakfast burritos from a place here and asked if I wanted any. They're not HUGE, but more than I would eat, so I asked for half of one. I ate it and almost immediately got the burpy/bubble/swallow thing going that told me it wasn't going down quietly. o_O

I THOUGHT I could save it, but no, it was up and out not long after I finished. However, I guess because it was somewhat cheesy, it did not come up very easily. Not only that, it didn't come up in one episode. It took three.

Is it possible to PB more than you ate?? o_O Cuz it sure seemed like it.

Not long afterward, I felt somewhat sick. This one got me a bit nervous. I sure as hell don't want any band slippage.

This is one of those times I'll be taking it easy for a while and doing liquids. I was planning on going back on the five-day pouch test again if only because I've started experiencing reflux at night when I'm sleeping. It's not acid, but it's been waking me up, choking me (though I've been sleeping higher and higher on pillows) for a little over a week now. I haven't had a fill in a while, so I know it's not due to anything like that. Maybe I'm too tight, but it's hard to tell since my last fill was in either June or July. Stress from all the school work? I don't know... I figured if I did the pouch test, it might settle things down.

Zumba kicked my ever-lovin' butt!

Well, I ramped up my exercise a bit yesterday.  I again found myself at school on a Monday where I had about three house between classes, but I wanted to do things a bit different.  So I spent the first 35 minutes or so on the elliptical and then took two classes back-to-back.  The first one was a 30-minute class called ABC (Abs, Butt, and Core), which was then followed by a class called Zumba.  Apparently this is a whole phenomenon that I have not been aware of, and I think I know why -- because it's an ass-kickin', sweat-makin', heart-thumpin' dance-style workout that incorporates Latin-inspired moves that are gorgeous to watch when people who are thin and coordinated and have cute butts do it.  Sadly, however... I ain't that girl.  Nothing like trying to shake it this'a way and the blubber is counteracting that'a way.  o_O  Holy moly, I was a MESS!  It was like watching Jell-O during an earthquake.

I don't know if I should go back or not as I probably embarassed myself beyond words.  Red-faced, sweating like a pig, can't do the moves, lookin' ridiculous... yeah, gimme more of that, right?  But I DO see that, for three easy installments of $19.95, I can experience the excitement of Zumba in my own basement.  I'm thinking about it for when we get the floor put down between semesters later this month.

[link to a version of this program] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDXmi4icBW4

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving, all

This time last year I was still on liquids after my surgery.  This year I get to actually eat, though we don't have any family around to celebrate with.  It will just be the two of us, and I'm making my world-famous shrimp etouffe because that's what was asked for.

I'm working hard to get caught up on school work during this week I'm off, so working out is not really happening.  Then again, I've only really been fitting it in on the days I go to school which, thankfully, is three days a week.  I'll survive not doing much this week, though if it gets decent outside, I might have to walk away from schoolwork and go take the dogs for a walk.  :)

I noticed something rather... odd... but nice the other day.  When I get home, almost the first thing I do is rip off the bra.  Well, I got some new tees the other day that fit me better (not billowy like the other ones got), and I looked down after de-bra'ing (lol) and, well... the girls looked... perky...........ish.  Okay, not perky -- let's face it, they'll never look like they did when I was 16, but they didn't have this tired-dog look to 'em.

Okay, I know... a bit too much information probably, but I take my successes wherever I can find 'em.  ;)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

1-year bandiversary!

Okay, I haven't made it to bed yet, but it is technically my one-year bandiversary.  One year ago today, I took the steps to take charge of my life and got my band.  I am down 68.5 pounds which -- though not as good as I had hoped -- is better than I have experienced in the past.  Granted, I've dieted successfully in the past -- and by successfully I mean that I lost a large amount of weight in a short amount of time.  However, I don't believe I was ever successfully lower a year out from my start date as I am now.  Often by six months out, I was already getting off track and working back in an upward swing.  Often by one year out, I had gained a lot of my weight back.  So I will choose to look at that as my success.

I decided to go ahead and take measurements, something I haven't done since May.  Well, I was pleasantly surprised!  Since my last measurements, I've lost another 12 1/4 inches!  All together, I have lost 81 inches of what used to be fat and flab.

That feels REALLY good!  I needed that today, to see the results in pictures, and to take measurements.  It tells me that even though my weight loss is "only" 16 pounds since May, the results ARE showing up in other ways.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

How much, how fast?

This is also from Jillian's online newsletter, and I liked it since I am trying like hell to lose more than two pounds a week.  Here is the question and answer from her newsletter:

Q: I love that I have the information I need to lose 2 pounds a week; however, I would like to lose more than that. How can I lose 4 to 5 pounds a week? I have a total of 96 more pounds to lose.

A:  To lose a pound, you must burn 3,500 calories. As I've said before, it's all about the math — how to burn more calories in the most effective way.

You can only do so much resistance training without damaging your muscles and impeding your results. Additionally, you can't starve the weight off: If you eat fewer than 1,200 calories a day, you will sabotage your optimal results. Therefore, cardio is weight loss extra credit. It allows you to burn additional calories without overtraining. This is one of the reasons some Biggest Loser players can still lose 20 pounds a week, even 7 weeks into the program.

Think about the math: If you are eating 1,500 calories a day — we assume your BMR without exercise is 1,600 (this is actually my BMR) — and you do two 1-hour cardio sessions that burn 500 calories each (one in the morning and one at night), the two sessions, along with your regular daily activity, will speed up your base metabolism to at least 2,000. As a result, you will have burned about 1,500 calories that day — that is, almost half a pound. At that rate you will be losing up to 3.5 pounds a week.

That said, you are bound to lose more weight during the first two weeks of any weight loss regimen because of the dramatic change in your diet and the loss of excess fluid. After that, it's all about crunching the numbers, and cardio is the key.

The rule of the game: INTENSITY

Thanks to a friend of mine here, who directed me to the err of information I found, I looked further.  I LOVE Jillian from The Biggest Loser, and though she's not a doctor (that I know of), nobody can deny that she seems to know her stuff.  I just got this in my e-mail inbox which addresses low-intensity versus high-intensity workouts and working in the so-called fat-burning zone.  Here's what she says:

If you're looking to shed stubborn pounds, the rule of the game is to increase the intensity of your workouts. I want you to be working out at 85 percent of your maximum heart rate (MHR). However, you may have heard the "fat-burning zone" theory that encourages you to work out at just 70 to 75 percent of your MHR. The outdated assumption is that your body is drawing predominately on fat calories for energy — WRONG! It's completely misleading and it's time to lay the "fat-burning zone" myth to rest.

During physical training, your body has three possible sources of energy: carbs, fat, and protein. Protein is a last resort — of the three energy sources, your body is the most reluctant to draw on your protein stores.
Whether your body takes energy from glucose, which it gets from the breakdown of carbs, or fat depends on the intensity of your workout. Training at a high level of intensity forces your body to draw on carb calories for energy — they are a more efficient source of energy, and your body goes for its premium fuel when you're working hard. If you are training at a low level of intensity, your body doesn't need to be as efficient, so it will draw on a higher percentage of fat calories for fuel.

Sounds like low-intensity training would be more effective when it comes to losing fat, right? Wrong. These physiological facts are the ones that spawned the mistaken belief that low-intensity activity is better than high-intensity activity when it comes to burning fat and losing weight. These days we know that even though the ratio of fat-to-carb calories might be higher during low-intensity exercise, fewer calories are used up overall. High-intensity exercise burns the biggest number of calories.

From LOSING IT! With Jillian Michaels
Thursday, November 19, 2009

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Excellent NSVs yesterday!

I've either been stalled or lost very little in months and months.  I broke a plateau just the other day, which was great.  But yesterday made me feel FANTASTIC!

A classmate of mine asked me if I've been losing weight.  I said, yes, kind of (since I have not budged very much since the end of August), but that event hough I haven't lost much, I've been working out and working at it.  Now, I had a class with her back in spring of 2008, and of course I was a lot larger then.  I told her that since that time, I had lost around 70 pounds, but did she mean since way back then or did she mean since this semester began?  She said certainly she realized I'd lost since 2008, but that even in this semester I'd looked like I'd lost weight.  Omg, I about kissed her full on the mouth in front of God and everybody!  I thanked her profusely, since I really needed to hear this.  BOY did that feel good!

My second NSV was my workout yesterday.  I've been going through some horrible crap on Facebook with a prior LBTer that I thought was a good person.  People who know her would be surprised to know what I now know.  She is NOTHING in real life like the persona she put out there on LBT.  She was helpful, insightful, even-keeled, reached out to newbies, everything that made her seem like a good person.  I have come to find that, like the characters on V, she has a human exterior that hides a reptile underneath.  It's been a very emotional weekend as all this has come out and the fallout has taken out three of us who are pretty close. 

I say all this to say that I decided Sunday that I was going to work out like crazy yesterday as I had a lot of emotion to burn off.  Mondays are my school days where I have just over three hours between classes, and I decided I was going to really push myself (pretending I was on The Biggest Loser as I did it, lol) and work out the entire time.  It was tiring, but omg, it felt SOOOO good to use something beneficial to work out my anxiety and stress!

When I got home, I downloaded my GoWear Fit and it showed that in that time, I burned just over 1,300 calories!!  This morning I was down to a new low of 221.5.  Not a big budge (I started at 222.5 yesterday morning), but hey, I'll take ANYTHING!  My new goal is to get below 220, the lowest I've been in many, many years, and it will also represent the most weight I've ever lost.

My bandiversary is coming up on Saturday, and I want to revel in what I've lost and not worry about where I THOUGHT I would be.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

2s never looked so GOOD!

Omg, I can't believe it, but I hit a new low!  I haven't been able to get below 223.5 since September 2 (and actually have been bouncing up sometimes as high as 226 and then back down to 224, 223.5), but this morning -- 222!!  Can this plateau FINALLY be broken???

I've still been seeing Heather every two weeks, and yesterday she suggested something I hadn't thought of -- a nutritionist, in order to see what I might be doing wrong.  Overall I'm very happy with how I'm eating, and so far every day I've had school, I've gotten there early and done a good workout and haven't missed even once, so my frustration was mounting as to why I wasn't seeing any results from the scale.  What alarmed me was even after a month of exercise, I wasn't seeing it in the tape measure either.  However, I've determined that I won't stop what I'm doing -- SOMEthing's gotta give, right?

On another good note, we are buying the flooring needed to do the basement!  That means that (hopefully) I should have my basement back in relatively short order.  Even if I can't work on it while I'm in school, I will be finished in a month and can do it then -- which will be perfect timing since I likely won't be using the gym that much when school ends.

But omg, did I mention this forever-long plateau ENDED??

*SCREAMING*  I just checked my BMI -- I am now officially "just" obese instead of severely obese!!!  Okay, this day is going down as a very happy day.  :)

Friday, October 30, 2009

Stress on top of stress and... relief?

Wow, I just realized it's been two weeks since I've posted!  I'm in mid-term mode, and it's ugly.  Very ugly.  I'm already behind about six chapters of reading due to all the papers I've been doing.  It's insane.

To boot, today is my 16th anniversary.  Good news, right?  Yeah, not so much.  He and I have had issues most of our marriage, and last night we had "The Talk," and it's sounding like we both give up.  I know I've had about all I can take, that's for sure.  And though I'm melancholy about it, I'm not as sad as one would think.  I really REALLY need to have less stress in my life, and being with him seems to cause me more than my fair share.

I have to say, though, I had a good session with Heather the other day.  This was in the midst of some of the crap I'm talking about, and by then I had sent the spousal unit a pretty scathing letter a few days prior, outlining the things I couldn't tolerate about his behavior anymore.  It wasn't nice, but it was honest.  I thought she was going to shake her head at me and tsk tsk, but she actually commended me and directed my attention to the fact that, instead of turning to food during this stressful time, I've been working out harder and longer, I vented in the letter, and I've been doing things to get it out rather than shoving it in.

So... I don't know where things go from here.  I'm a full-time student with no income, and I guess I need to figure something out.  The ironic thing is that a staffing agency I had been working with prior to going to school full-time called me out of the blue yesterday morning (before "The Talk") and wanted to see if they could present me for a position.  I told her that I'm still in school full-time, but we figured that since my last day is December 16 and it's nearly November, the hiring process can take a few weeks, and employers typically expect somebody to put in two weeks' notice, it may just work out.  I said, eh, what the hell?  Maybe it was an omen or a hint of things to come.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Cardio vs. Fat Burning modes -- good information to know

I've been thinking as I've been working out on the machines at the gym -- I've wondered what the benefits are of these two modes, cardio and fat burning.  I've found some differing opinions, but this was written by a doctor (found on a message board but credited to a Precor site) and explains how you may benefit from a lower-intensity workout (especially if you are, like me, trying to lose weight).  Here is the question that was asked and what she said:

Q. We have several workout machines in our office and I want to use them, but I'm confused about the different heart rate zones. What zone should I be training in to lose weight?

A. This is a great question that many people ask. It is important to realize that the body has two different fuels it converts to energy: carbohydrates and fats. The body burns these fuels in different proportions depending on your fitness and the intensity of your workout. Your body stores fewer carbohydrates than fat, yet it accesses the carbohydrates more easily. So the goal is to make your body more efficient at burning the stored fat while sparing the carbohydrates. Working out at higher heart rates [70 to 85 percent] will burn more carbohydrate calories in the short term, but it is working out in the lower zones [60 to 70 percent] that trains your body to become efficient at fat burning. In turn, this improves your endurance and aerobic fitness, eventually leading to a faster metabolic rate during exercise. This means that over time, you can burn as many calories at a low intensity as you were previously burning at a high intensity. With proper training this can happen in as little as three to six months.

Therefore, the best intensity for weight loss is one that seems 'fairly light' to 'somewhat hard'. Often people who cannot lose weight, or who even gain weight despite high intensity exercise and restrictive dieting, find success through a combination of slowing down their exercise, and improving the quality of their diet. This approach is not only more effective, but it's more fun and easier to stick to long-term!
-- Emily Cooper, M.D.

I sometimes tend to find it hard, actually, to keep my heart rate low enough to be in the fat-burning zone.  I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that I haven't exercised consistently or long enough for my heart to be strong enough to beat at a slower rate when exercise is introduced, but I have noticed in the past that it only takes a few weeks of moderate exercise about four times a week (or more) for my heart to respond accordingly.  I had times when I was younger and more fit that it was hard to get it up into the cardio zone.
So for a while now, I will work at getting and keeping myself in the fat-burning zone (since I have SO much to burn) and see how I feel about it.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Little quiches for breakfast (or whenever)

I got this idea the other day about making things for breakfast (which, though I might do a shake, I don't EAT because I'm not usually very hungry).  I know now this is not a brainstorm of my own since others have said they've found recipes online.  But here's how I fixed mine (realizing you can add or subtract anything you want to them).

I minced up some onion, mushroom, grape tomatoes, garlic, then chopped baby spinach, hand-stirred them up in a bowl, then I got out some muffin tins, sprayed them with olive oil, and put some of the veggie mixture into the bottom.  I then put a small dollop of sour cream in each one, filled with egg beaters, topped with shredded parmesan cheese, and put in a 350 oven for 15 minutes, then turned it down to 300 for another 15 minutes.

Whoa, nellie, they're GOOD!

I might one day try to make them more like a quiche (which has a crust) and use something like a philo dough or something to line the pan with.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I've been kicking my own ass -- and loving it!

I wanted to post this yesterday because I was SO excited, but I had a terribly busy day and was still going over a term paper up until 2:00 am.

Anyway, yesterday I did the gym and while I was on the treadmill, I did one three-minute schleppy-run for three solid minutes!  Prior to that I did one run for two minutes, and then later did another one for nearly two minutes.  But THREE minutes!  I've never run that long at one spell before.  I know it's the most pathetic little accomplishment ever, but I felt very proud.  :)

Today I had classes again, so I went to the gym early.  The thing is, I don't have my first class until 3:00, and last week I left the house around 12:30, in order to get there about 1:30 and work out until about 2:45 or so before I start changing clothes and walk across campus to class.

Well, today I left at 11:30 and never thought about it until I was halfway to school.  I was like, OH CRAP, then figured, meh, that just means I can work out for over TWO hours.  Which I did.

I did 30 minutes on the elliptical, then 30 minutes on the treadmill (tried jogging again but only did about a 90 seconds because my knees are a bit sore and stiff, so I increased the incline pretty high), then did 45 minutes lower body weight training (yesterday was upper body), then back to the cardio for 30 minutes on the recumbant bike.  I checked my GoWear Fit and I did 800 calories during that time between 12:30 and 3:00!!  Feels GOOD!

I'm not trying anymore

I was working out the other day and was watching Dr. Oz while I was on the elliptical.  I didn't have headphones, but closed captioning was on.  There was a very overweight woman on there, and he was obviously talking to her about her health, her weight, etc.  She had done some modeling shots when she was 15 years younger (and SHE said a size 16 or 18, though I have to say she looked smaller than that), and she was lovely.  Simply lovely.  I looked at her, miserable, sad, a shadow of her former self, and it was heartbreaking.  I found myself saying, "Wow, 375.  That's 125 more than I weigh right now," and I hate to admit it, but I was relieved in a way.  I'm sad to say that out loud, but it IS what I was thinking.

Oz had a therapist woman in his audience, and I somewhat read the exchange between her and this poor woman.  And I recognized it as something I've heard before.  The therapist was telling her what she needed to start doing to get things under control (the woman is borderline diabetic now), and the woman said, "Yes, I can try that."  The therapist essentially said that that to say, "I'll try," you might as well say you won't do it because TRYING leaves open the optionn of failing.  If we say we will DO something, then that is an action word we can get behind.  Trying doesn't really mean anything.  If we "try" and then have an off day or don't want to exercise, don't want to eat well, don't want to drink our water, we can simply let ourselves off the hook by saying, "Well, I tried."

So... I have decided that I'm not trying anymore.  I'm doing or not doing, but trying is off the table.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Okay, no fair

Okay, I realize that when you work out, especially weight training, you can gain weight.  I get it.  I don't LIKE it, but I get it.  But damn, when you work your butt off and exercise, the last thing you want to see is a gain of two pounds on the scale for the next couple days.  How defeating.  :(

I keep trying to look up how to combat that.  Though I know some weight gain (or lack of weight loss) can come about due to muscle weighing more, since I've just worked out within the last few days, it's more likely a fluid retention issue.  How one goes about keeping that from happening, though, I have no idea.

For once, Costco is my friend

I can't believe it!  Just ran to Costco for some of their spring mix salad (which then turned into a meat run, edamame [frozen and dried for snacks], and veggies), and while I was there, I saw that they had a bunch of coats out on their tables for sale.  I found one I liked and though, what the heck, I'll try the extra large and just see.  A teeny bit snug, but it fit!!  So did a few others I tried on!  I can finally FINALLY buy something "normal" from off the rack!  All my other coats are anywhere from 2X to 3X and waaay too big.  I don't want to buy much like this because it's seasonal, but I would like ONE thing I wear this winter to not be humongous.

Friday, October 9, 2009

I'm SO glad you're looking out for MY best interest...

I stood up for myself, but I'm SO tired of it being an issue.

Hubby wanted Chinese tonight.  Not just Chinese, but a really great place here in town makes some fantastic ribs.  However, in the past I would accommodate him and order the General Tsao's chicken because he likes both, and that way he could HAVE both.  For those who might not know how General Tsao's is prepared, it's chicken that's deep fried with a lotus flour batter.  This place's is especially thick and crunchy -- and good.

Well... he orders his ribs, and then he's asking me what I'm getting.  I figured I'd try something different, so I tossed out a couple possibilities, leaning towards their pad thai (which I had never had before).  He kinda curls his lip and says, "Really?  You're getting that?"  I said yes, that I wanted to try something different, to which he said, "Their General Tsao's really good..."  I ignored him the first time.  By the time he said it the THIRD time, my response was, "Wow, I'm SO glad you're looking out for my best interest."  To which, of course, I get the, "What??  It's just really good.  I can't believe you're doing noodles.

Well, damnit, if that's what I want, then that's what I'm getting.  No longer am I going out to eat to give him everything HE wants.

Even my friend today, who's never said it before, essentially blamed my husband for my weight gain.  Granted, she's never known me thin (this is foody friend wife, and we've only known them since 2006), but I was very surprised to hear her say that.  I corrected her and said it was really my fault, but she re-corrected me and said, "Yeah, but he had a lot to do with it, with his obsession with food and wanting to eat out all the time."  Imagine that, coming from her!  lol

Anyway, I stood my ground, he pouted, and the pad thai wasn't all that good anyway.  But... it was MY choice.  Damnit.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Did three hours' worth today!

Workout, that is.

I did the first hour and 45 minutes this morning on the stationary bike while I did my textbook reading, and then I went to school early and headed right to the gym and did another hour and 15 minute workout there.

And now I hurt.  Gonna be hard getting out of bed tomorrow.  But YAY, I did it!  :)

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Feelin' GOOD

Okay, I did TWO things today!  I went to the gym for an hour and fifteen minutes and worked by bootay off (to the point of dizziness, so I guess that's good, right? lol), then came home and did some textbook reading on the stationary bike for another 40 minutes.

I'm on my way back dowwwwn, baby!  As of this morning I was at my previous low of 223.5 (down 67.5), and once I get below 220, I'll be the lowest I've been in probably 12 years AND I'll have lost the most I've lost (previous amount was 70 pounds).

I feel empowered right now.  If I could only bottle it so that I ALWAYS seek out to feel like this.

Back in the saddle again!

Okay, not only am I heading to the gym in a couple hours and working out before class, but I got on the scale today and -- WOO HOO!  I'm back at my low of 223.5, a weight I haven't seen since right after the pouch test waaaaay back when!  First I had that absolutely unexplainable spike right after the test, then I bobbled around 224-226 for a while.

Well, today I feel energized.  I was thanking God as I took my shower this morning because now I can use that as my baseline, and it's a number I've been looking for (and a number I've been looking to pass, obviously) for weeks now.

Okay, my friends, let the workout begin!