So, even though we're not in a weight loss race, it still feels discouraging when you ARE doing the right things and you don't see the results on the scale. Okay, yes, I know we use other measurements (how clothes fit, measurements, how you feel), but still... I WANNA SEE THE SCALE MOVE, DAMNIT! Is that too much to ask?
Part of my stress over this is the fact that I've had three bad fills (one where I was filled way over what my doc thought, and now two where my "fill" actually turned into a partial unfill). I know I lost an entire month from late December until now where I felt I could eat almost anything. That was the most recent time there was a screw-up where instead of going from 4.2 to 4.6, I was actually taken down to 4.
I was talking to some other bandsters about it today, and I got an epiphany. Here is what I said to them:
I think we ALL feel, going into this, that dread of, "What if this doesn't work?" To lose 20 pounds since March is doing just that. Granted, it's not all due to the band, and I concede that. But for the last number of months, I've been rockin' it and doing what I should most of the time. To not see the results on the scale (even though inches may be affected, but let's be real -- we want to see the SCALE move) AND to also be dealing with this yo-yo'ing of my band, well... it's just feeding into that, "I've failed with SURGERY." I know in my heart that's not true, but when you've dieted all or most of your life and you've lost and gained and lost and gained and tried and failed, you can't get out of that mindset very easily.
It's a double whammy. It's discouraging. It makes you wonder why you're working out 3, 4, 5 days a week and not seeing anything. Okay, in all fairness I've lost 9.5 pounds just since Monday, but still... That was only because I could hardly even get down a protein drink and was likely only taking in a few hundred calories each day since then.
One thing I'm going to do, along with logging my meals once I'm on regular food (doc put me on liquids for another 24-48 hours) is take measurements. I might take them tonight, and then keep tabs on them either monthly or bi-monthly. I'll do all I can to gauge my progress. And if I don't see the numbers change there, I will pull my band out with a spork. o_O