Thursday, January 13, 2011
When food- and weight-Nazis strike
Ugh, today was not a good day. I'm visiting my folks right now as I'm between semesters, and today I got "the talking to" from my mom about my weight. Do those closest to us REALLY need to point out that we're still fat or struggling or making bad choices? I don't know about any of YOU, but I know when I've put on weight. I'm the one that has to try to fit into my underpants in the morning.
I'm sure it was MEANT to sound like concern, but what she said was I am fortunate, highly intelligent, can go on vacation if I want, have a nice home, own my vehicles, etc., and from the outside I look to others like I'm strong and accomplished -- so why can't I get it together? And beyond all that, I have a band now to help me lose the weight. So what's the problem? She said I'm using excuses like the stress from last semester to excuse what I'm doing -- "It's 'stress' that made me make bad decisions and not exercise, etc."
My mom, who was thin until she hit her late 50s and could always eat whatever she wanted, has a good 50 or so pounds she could stand to lose. I said, "Okay, then let's turn the tide -- other than the band, you have everything I have AND you don't have a job and you have two gyms you can use here for free whenever you want, so what is your excuse?" She then said that it wasn't about her because she doesn't care about her weight anymore . WTH is with that? I KNEW once I got a band and told her about it, it would be one hugee failure she could point out if I didn't rock it like some have.
I don't know if any of you have gone through that; but if you have, you know how disheartening that feels. I don't need to have my teeth kicked in because there are none left from where I have been kicking them in. I've often wondered what I would have been like if I had had some positive influence in my life. :/
Posted by Beth at 8:44 PM